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I read a book titled “ Traveling Light” today and I actually came across something I feel it’s meaningful and it’s good to share this with people around me. I wish more people will know and it will benefit their life. I’m no one so great. But I can share what I have with you all.

 

Meets today’s problems with today’s strength. Don’t start tackling tomorrow’s problems until tomorrow. You do not have tomorrow’s strength yet. You simply have enough for today.

 

For I believe that each and every one of us has our own problems to tackle with, it can either be a major problem or a minor problem, in all its problems.

 

Life is full of doubt, full of challenges, full of obstacles. And we can’t escape from all doubt, challenges, obstacles because it’s a day-to-day basis. And for those who never thought of this, this is the time to think.

 

Even those who feel that life is smooth, happy, normal, I feel that it’s just what they choose to show to people or maybe to even deceive themselves that I’m happy with my life, deep in them, they do have their very own problem, which they don’t wish to think, but to avoid it so as not to worry.

 

Avoiding is not a good way of solving problems; you are just dragging the problems even longer, this may cause unknown depression that grew in your heart. This will only break out when you are really at the edge of giving up and breaking down.

 

My advices to this people are to accept that there’s a problem and face it rather than avoiding it. And I feel that it will be good if you are able to find someone to talk about it. Don’t keep it to yourself.

 

If you don’t wish to confide with anyone, there’s someone I can recommend to you and this person is Jesus Christ. You can talk to him, question him, and cry to him. He will hear you. He will be your listening ear. He will not forsake you when you are down.

 

However, if you think that how will God still bothered with me, after so much sin that I had done in my life, that I had disappoint Him, that I had rejected His love, I didn’t choose to believe and to accept Him and I don’t deserve His love, His forgiveness? Now, I will tell you. God open His door to all people.

 

 For I sin too. Everyone is a sinner. No one is perfect, except God. I’m no one so great that I’m the only who had been given the privilege to be in the family of God. God loves everyone, this includes you who are reading. God will not forsake you because of what you have done, seek for forgiveness and repent. God will be there for you when you are broken, lonely, despair, suicide, do you want to believe? Why don’t you try praying to God? This will not do any harm.

 

For some Christians, or those who are going to be a Christian and still have doubt in your heart. You may have times when you feel that your prayers are not answered at all and you started to question if God had heard your prayers. I can tell you that, God had heard your prayer. However, God has His own timing; He knows when is the best time to give you the best thing. You just have to trust and have faith in God. Patience is what we, humans have to learn. Don’t doubt on God. If you believe that He will help you, He will. He will help those who believe that He will. Leave it all to God. He will know what to do. What we need to do is to say our requests and wait with patience.

 

Have you ever thought of, why Jesus Christ had to die on the cross, since I had said that He’s a perfect man once and now a perfect God? Now, I will tell you why. God is perfect, He did no sin and He was crucified on the cross, it’s for our sin that we are bearing in us. He’s to exchange His life for ours. Why we are still so ungrateful, didn’t thank God and didn’t want to accept His love, His unconditional love even He did such a great thing. Let me ask all of you. Would you lay your life for your friend’s life or even your enemies? The answer is definitely NO. However, God is willing to die in our place, even His enemies, enemies refers to people who hate Him, who rejected Him, who rejected His love. Can you be greater than Him? I doubt so.

 

I’m not saying that being a Christian, life will be better, life will be perfect, life will be smooth, there bounds to be troubles, obstacles, difficulties, problems but  as Christian we should remember this: If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. He will neither forget nor forsake you.

 

Do you want to accept His unconditional love? He will be there you needed Him most. Friends and family could be there for you, they can’t be there forever, and God can. He is forever. Do you want to know this Great God? Do you wish to have Him in Your life? Do you want to have another Great friend, greater than any friends you have now? Do you want to trust Him? Do you want to communicate with Him?

 

He’s greater than any celebrities, great man you have heard of, idols, friends, and father. He’s awesome. He lives with us. We can pray at anytime, anywhere. And he’s a good listening ear and good adviser. His words console our soul, give hopes to the despair situations. His words refer to the bible. God may use the bible to communicate with you.  

 

 

Back to problems, everyday has challenges and obstacles to be faced. Why worry so much about tomorrow when you only have the strength for today and you do not know if you will be alive tomorrow. Don’t let anxiety and worries overwhelm your soul, take control of your life. Too much worry will cause to illness. Why don’t you try to leave your worries of tomorrow until you are sure that you are still alive? And why do you worry so much when you know that there’s someone who is willing to take your burden unto his shoulder (“God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the times come” – Matt 6:34) and He will lead the way for you. (Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path. –Psalm 119:105)

 

God isn’t going to let you see the distant scene. So you should just quit looking for it. He promises a lamp onto our feet, but not a crystal ball of our future. We do not need to know what will happen tomorrow and we only need to know he lead us and “we will find grace to help us when we need it (Heb 4:16) –Max Lucado

 

So don’t worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will have its own worries. Each day has enough trouble of its own (Matt 6:34).

 

 

"We Believe"

There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night

Downtown
Another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There's no regard for life
How do they sleep at night
How can we make things right?
Just wanna make this right

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every way

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)

Yesterday (Fri) night, I met up with the youth that attending Chinese Service these days and as well as Pastor Bai This is the first time we are gathering for a youth cell in Chinese Service. The 5 of us came. Eugene, Steven, Lawrence, Wan Ting, Pastor Bai and myself.  This is the first time we sat together to know each other more and better, as Pastor Bai is rather new in my church.

 

The aim of this cell is not only to build our relationship with one another but also to build a closer relationship with Our Savior God. Our cell will have prayers, sharing, and testimonies, sing praise together, knowing God’s words. The purpose of this cell is that when anyone of us needs encouragement, we will be there for each other, rapport and support one another, pray for each other. This will help to bring us closer together, this cell will held once a month and usually will be on Fri night.

 

We talked about making choice. How come I will end up in NYP and in Engineering Informatics? It’s not much of my choice here. Now, I’ve you start saying from the time I had taken my results. I was taken a back, back then, I was unable to believe that the results that appeared before me is actually my results. It was real bad, but I try to hold back my tears from rolling down my cheeks. This incident had left me with a unfathomable impression. I was dreadfully depressed, despair, devastated, but I’ve to accept the fact rit was true.

 

That is the time for the time to make a choice for the next place to go after my 5 years of Secondary School. I had placed a lot of courses that I’ve desired. However, due to the increase of the number of students with the lower point than I had. I had left with no place to go, no vacancies to enroll me in, all schools rejected me. When I know about it, I felt totally lost and it’s like soon, I’ll be announce ‘HOMELESS’. Without a school, I felt depress. And so my friends and I decided to go from school to school to appeal for a place for me to study. However, the night before I went to appeal I prayed this prayer:” Heavenly Father, what should I do now? I was left with no schools. I desperately need your help, need your presence to quieter my heart, need your answer to help me in such helpless situation. I wan to believe that you will help me. You are my only hope and light in this darkness I’m standing in alone. We, humans are limited, there are much more things that is beyond our control, because we have no power over anything even our lives. I have faith in You. Thanks God for listening to my prayers. I prayed all this in Jesus’s Precious name. Amen.”

 

The next day, I felt totally different from when before I prayed. I felt relax, calm and peaceful. God knows this is all I needed. Therefore, we went to appeal. I entrusted my whole situation into God’s hand. I choose to believe that God will provide me somewhere that I can excel well in there. I believe that God’s has His reason for all the things that happened and the people who appear in our life. God will not do things without a reason. He has His own timing we just need to trust and have faith in Him. That’s all we need. He will do the job for us.

 

After the appeal, I have to wait for the schools to reply me if my appeal had pass. One day, I received a letter-mail, it’s from NYP and when I open up the mail, it’s the enrollment form, in other words, my appeal had succeeded and I was given a place in NYP. I’m really thankful. My heart was filled with happiness. I can’t express gratitude enough just by words. My darkness had gone and light has entered into my life. As I believe He will help me, and He really did. He didn’t forsake me when I was at my lowest point of my life. Thanks Lord for being there for me, not just being my listening ear but at the same time console and help me through this seems negative time. You are awesome. There’s no one who can compare with You. Lord, I wish I could share your greatness with all the people around me. I want more people to be in the same family as I am in. I want more people to come into Your Kingdom. You are Our Savior, Our Lord. No one is greater than You are! Lord Let your greatness shines to all people who had not experience Your love, Your greatness. Thanks Lord. I’m glad that I had made the choice I had in the beginning. I love You, Lord. I can’t thank you enough.

 

Back to about making choices. In Joshua 24:15, it tell us that God provide us with choices but what’s our choice going to be greatly depend on ourselves. We either follow God or choose our own way. There are consequences that we need to bear for our choice that we have made. God will not force us to walk in His given choice. He given us the best path, it depend on us if we want to walk this best path. We should follow God’s calling as God will let His will be fulfilled. How to know if our choice is right? It’s through prayers. God has fulfillment for each and every one of us. It’s our choice to follow Him or not. God has his plan and reason for he path that he had shown before us. God provide us with the best, we should choose wisely, if unsure about it, pray and ask God for better directions and choose the one that pleases God.

 

 

I got a inspiration of writing for today, after I watch one of the chapter of "One Litre Of Tears". 

I got sadden by Aya situation, it's a true story of a 15 year old girl who diagnose a incurable illness that will deteriorate her health slowly, because her sickness is closely related to the nerves system. She will gradually unable to walk, unable to speak properly, unable to control her body. And what really sadden me is that she is only 15 when she was discovered with such incurable illness. 

She was strong and optimistic about her life at first before it had deteriorated to the worst. She never gives up, she continue to live and wanting to help people who needed help. However, when her illness deteriorated,she felt useless because she find that she can't help others and needed people, family's help. It really broke my heart of all the words that she had spoken. 

This actually inspired me alot. I find that in life, everything is unpredictable, especially when it comes to talk about life and death. All this is beyond human control. We are unable to choose how long we wanted to live, because we are not God. Only God knows it well. God knows everything about each and everyone of us. 

I may be alive today and talk to you, but who knows about tomorrow? Maybe I'm not here anymore. This is possible. That's why life is so precious. I just don't understand why some people can take life lightly, do things that not only hurt themselves but at the same time hurt people who love them. There are people who are diagnose with incurable illness and you all know how much they wish they can have more days to live? They are so afraid to close their eyes, because they are so afraid that once they close their eyes, they will be gone forever. They wanted to live so much and yet people who are healthy, smoke, drink,being a ah beng/ah lian, go around bully people, do all sorts of things that not only hurt urself but affect your health. Does all this things and this kind of life is cool, meaningful? I can tell you, you are 100% wrong. This kind of life is totally meaningless, I don't see a point for you to be living in the world, you are not contributing to the society but also your family. You bring headache, shame, inferior to your family. You are doing nothing in this earth, you might as well end your life, because it's totally useless and pointless. 

If you still want to continue to live this kind of useless life, it's up to you. You want to waste your life, it's your choice, I can't choose for you but I can remind you that, you should do things more meaningful, don't live a life you think everyday is fun, everyday is party, it's not going to help. We need obstacles to help us grow up and handle problems. Never too late to change, it's just a matter you want it a not? Think about what can you do to have a changed life, don't live a life that you feel that you are doing the same things again and again. 

Do something that not only help yourself but help others. This is really important. Human are self-centred, selfish. I don't blame anyone for that. But i really hope in this world there will be even more people who needs help will be able to get help from those who can help. Then, this world will be extremely heart warming, instead of the war, political problems, or killing each other within the same country. I really don't understand what's up in the mind of the terrorist. I hope this world is filled with love. Why can't all of us live in peace? How can people heart be so vindictive?

Psalm 5
1 Give ear to my words, O LORD, consider my sighing.
2 Lisen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray.
3 In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.
4 You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil; with you the wicked cannot dwell.
5 The arrogant cannot stand in your presencel; you hate all who do wrong.
6 You destroy those who tell lies; bloodthirsty and deceitful men the LORD abhors.
7 But I, by your great mercy, will come into your house; in reverence will I bow down towards your holy temple.
8 Lead me, O LORD, in your righteousness because of my enemies- make straight your way before me.
9 Not a word from their mouth can be trusted; their heart is filled with destruction. Their throat is an open grave; with their tongue they speak deceit.
10 Declare them guilty, O God! Let their intrigues be their downfall. Banish them for their many sins, for they have rebelled against you.
11 But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
12 For surely, O LORD, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

Questions to ponder: 
Question1: In what situation would you regard someone as a person to whom you owe a debt?
Question2: HOw do you view and respond to those to whom you owe a debt?

Debt could be :
1) MONEY
2) LIFE ( Korean Hostage)
3) FAVOUR

Life is short, don't make it shorter, live it to the fullest. This is what I can say to people around me. Life indeed is short, because time passes real fast. And in life, there are tough and despair times but also not forgetting the times of happiness and excitment. All of us can only live once, we shouldn't waste our time in the world. Although this world is filled with evil, destruction and suffering. However, no matter how life going to be, we should cherish every single thing, and people in our life. Not just mere coincidence, for I believe there's a reason for their appearance in our life. 

You must be thinking why there's a God and there's still suffering in this world. However, have u ever think that our so called "SUFFERING" that we may suffer now, no matter is sickness, failure, etc, are nothing compare to Jesus's suffering. Jesus suffer much more than you and I had suffer. Have you ever had nails pierce through your both hand's wrist, your body, your legs? He had all this suffering is for whose sake? For you and I sake! Our little pain of suffering, we can scream, grumble, curse but compare with Jesus, whose suffering is worst? You may think that I'm saying it because I didn't encounter any suffering. Yes, I agreed that I didn't have much suffering. However, When ever I feel pain, I will think of What Jesus had done for us and this really put me to an ease. During suffering, God will walk with you. God will carry you while you're suffering. God want us to follow the holy spirit to contine walking even how bad/suffering the life is.God will not abandon us when we suffered. Only you choose not to believe in Him and don't allow your heart to open the door for God to enter. For sure when you know God, surrender all of you to God, your life will be in a total difference. 

And only when we are being very broken, God will appear real and He's there to ba a help to us. By that time, God will use us. Make us useful. When we are broken, will see God to be our only light and hope. this is really true. I have heard from some testimonials of some aunties that how they or their families had come to know God. I heard one is about this woman who is very very sicked, she had seen alot of doctors, pray to all the chinese Gods. She had tried everything she can however, one day, she heard from a friend about Jesus, out of desperation she went to her friend's church. Since this is the only last thing she can do. And so she went, she said that she felt different, she really pray to God with all her hearts. That's where it changed her life. She accepted Christ and love God very much. Not only that her sickness had improved, though it's not totally recovered yet, but i'm sure there's miracles in our mist. See, when we are broken, we tend to turn to God when nothing works at all. God is so real. And God replied our prayer. He heard it and answer to us. Although there are time when the things you asked is not given, don't be anxious. God has His timing, He will give you when He think it's the most suitable time. You just have to trust in him and have faith. You may think it's ridiculous but it's a true story, I just wanna share this marvelous life incident with all of you.

Life is already so short, Don't make it shorter by ending your life for undeserving matters. What you have now is temporary, it's not everlasting. When you die, nothing can bring with you not even your favorites. Our lives are given by God we had no right to take away our lives or other's live, because we are neither creators of heaven and earth, land and sea, nor creators of human beings.

Does study annoy you? But not those people who didn't get a chance to have education.
Hates Veggies? They Starve from hunger and sometimes they have to eat tree bark.
On diet? They die from it, because they are poor and had no money to even have food.
Does your parent cares tire u ? Some people don't even have parents to care, or their parents are too poor to take care of them. 
Bored of the same games? Some people don't even have a choice, they have no games, toys to play.
Someone get you Adidas instead of nike? They only have one brand and that's the bottle slippers.
Aren't you thankful for a bed to sleep in? They'd wish not to wake up.
Are u still complaining about your life?
Observe around you and be thankful for all that you have in this transitory lifetime. 
We are fortunate, we have much more than what we need to be content.

Life can be view in many different views. Life is not a must that God had to provide us. Don't take life for granted. Don't life a meaningless life. Spring into actions to do something meaningful now on. Rememeber you only can live once in this world. Don't waste your life like now, if you are still lazing around like a aimless fly. Get moving! 

Last but not least, something for you all to stop what you and ponder.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, Praise God.
Difficult moments, Seek God.
Quiet moments, Worship God.
Painful moments,Trust God.
Every moment. Thank God.

Time passes so fast, another Sem is ending soon. Now everyone is busy mugging as exam is real near, it's just around the corner. There are so many things need to study although there are only 3 subjects for us to handle. Too much information that need to be in our head. And the worst thing is that i'm getting nowhere. I had no mood, no heart to study, now i was like living in a holiday mood. I wish all this exam can finish ASAP. I wanna enjoy my holiday. Yesterday had my final presentation. Individual and it's a challenge for me, as i always so afraid of presenting. I am so glad that it's over and i felt much more happier now. But now i'm fighting not only with the time but as well as my heart, my heart is not listening to me and my brain is shut off. I'm dead if i still do my final revision. I pray that God will help me overcome this problem.

Finally I will thanks God for letting be able to breathe today's air. I will cherish every single things that you had provided me with. Family is the greatest gift that you have given me. Thanks alot. You have help me alot in my life, through my jolly moment, distress moment, despair situation. Thanks God for being there when i Really need You by my side. I'm really grateful. Love you,Lord.

What is love all about? I only know 3 kinds of love, Heavenly Father's love, Parent's love, Sibling's love. All this love are very precised.Because all this love is uncondition love. Love that will never fade no matter how long it wil be, because we have the family bonding. And this kind of love is very touching, very fulfilling, very blessed, very fortunate, it's very different from other loves. This loves bring warm to our hearts, bring light to our darkness, bring happiness to our sadness, as we know that no matter how hard life can be outside, there will always be someone at home to encourage, to care and concern, to dote. I'm really grateful for all the things that my Heavenly Father had given me and I really feel content with the family I'm living with right now. Because I know I'm one of them who had been loved by their family member. 

Although I am not born in a super duper rich family, I live in a 4-room flats with my other 3 family members, but I am really feel content to have a shelter and a home that I can call "MINE" I feel that what I really need had already given to me and I feel that I was even given more than i expected. I remembered that once, I was pondering about life and I realized that life is actually super short, and I also realized that I love my family members but I had never express my Love to them at all. And if I don't express myself now, when will it be? When I don't get a chance to say it anymore, and regret for life? And so i decided to give each of them a short SMS to tell them how I had love them and I was glad that all of them replied me. My dad actually apologize to me,saying that he had given me all the things I had wanted, but I really at that moment of time, I feel that I already had everything, what's more should I ask, there's nothing I want anymore. I had it all. My brother & mum also replied me. I felt warm and satisfy that I'm actually being loved by my family members. I was really happy!

I had learnt piano for quite some times and i wish that I will had a piano one day. And recently, my mom bought a digital piano for me, I'm really very happy, i had my wish come true when i unexpected it. It's really expensive but it worth the money as I will be using very often so as to not waste the money. I LOVE MY FAMILY. They are always so supportive, I can't imaged I don't have a family. I think it will be very lonely and everything you have to depend greatly on yourself. My family give me a lot of happiness and warm. All of them dote on me. It's enough.. 

My Heavenly Father had provided me with everything, my family, my house, my mobile phone, my friends, my churchmates and everything that i had with me now. I don't want to lose anyone of them. All the things that Heavenly Father had provided me with, I will cherish it all my life, And I LOVE MY HEAVENLY FATHER. He's the greatest HEAVENLY FATHER I ever had. He's Great! He's gracious, He's Awesome. Thanks HEAVENLY FATHER for provided me so many things and even more than I expected. THANK YOU!

Other than this, there are other loves such as friends, BGR, this is what I can think of.  

Friends: There are many kind of friends, true friends belongs to good/best friends,horrendous friends, HI-BYE friends,unfamiliar friends, transparent friends.

 Friends appeared in everyone life, they comes and goes in your life, no matter they stay on in your life or not, your life will still move on. Friends can be important, when you are lonely, when you are down, when you felt your world is real dark, you find yourself need a friend more than any other times. And this is also the time to know whether the friends you have are really your true friends or appeared to be your "true friends" Those who really care will console you, but those who don't will never bothered about your problem, that's when you feel what's the point to have friends at all, since when the time you really need them, they will never be there so what's the point? I know that friends is still friends, friends will only care and concern when they have time, when they don't have time for you, they will treat you like anyone else. But I feel that I'm very different, I'm always there for my friends who need my encouragement, need my support, need my love, need my care and concern, I will be thre, no matter how they treat me when I was down. Some times, friend really can make you real disappointed. I never say that to anyone, cos I don't see a point at all. I don't say things that are pointless. 

I don't blame my friends, they have their very own things to busy with. I cannot expect every friends to entertain me when they are really busy. But some times when I was really down I really wish I can talk to some one. But everytime I called them, they busy, they didn't pick up the phone, You know something, when everything seems so wrong to that person, all this unanswered called will be a nisance, the person may feel unloved, un-noticed, un-care,felt helpless felt in despaired. I really dislike such feeling. It's awful. However, I had found a better way to keep my emotional cool is to play the piano when I feel down, lonely. It's a real good way for me to relieve myself. It's better than keep calling my friends and I will keep listening to "Tur Tur" or "This suscrible is not available at the moment, please again later" I really dislike this moment. I will only keep to myself. What can I do? Nothing much. I only can turn to God when i really down, i felt that only God is wiling to listen to me, I felt that he's a real FRIEND To me. He's always there for  me. Really. I didn't lie. You all can choose not to believe in me. But it's real. He's my light, He will provide the path for me to walk on without fear, as I have faith that He will walk with me this journey nho matter how hard it's gonna be.Good/best friends will share your happy times and all the funny moment, all the rubbish moment, stupid moment and share our secrets, but it's all fond memories.. I like those moment with my good/best friends. Really.

For horrendous friend, this is obviously targeting on wicked friends, friends who had motive to get close to you, betrayer,backstabber,and they are out there to get you. They are horrible, make you no friends, make people dont believe in you anymore, make you lonely, make your life in darkness, make you live more like in hell than earth. Beware of such friends. They may even make used of you. Better be more careful.Warning for all of you, make friends with your eyes widely open. 

HI-BYE + Unfamiliar friends: This are friends you are not really close to them, but you know their existance and so greeting is just a basic politness. You all dont talk much.

Transparent friends: they are friends that you hardly see and hardly talk and so even normal greeting will become very redundant.

Now comes to BGR, I find that love in BGR is really complicated, it's very profound. Feeling comes and goes. You can like this person for now, but the next moment, you don't like. It's really hard to say. Love should be two-sided and not one-sided, the person who is loving someone one-sided, will feel very tired, very helpless, will think will there be any possible for us to be together. It's really bitter, it's really tired, really depress, really wondering how that person thinks of you. Love in BGR can be sweet, can be sour and can be bitter. It's a mixture of all this. i find that Love in BGR is like not my cup of tea. Or maybe the right one had not appear yet. Never mind, I believe God had a great and a wonderful plan for me. Hence, I need not worry. 

Surprisingly I was blogging about myself, but as usual,not about my daily life but it's about how my life had changed . Just now while i was sitting on my bed to ponder over some thoughts when suddenly a very strong feeling strucked me that I had to reflect the past me. I'm not sure why I felt this feeling. So now, i'm going to share with everyone the past me that some of you may not know about me. Things had been real different now compare to the past. And I'm glad this days. 

All people know that I am a christian, who is rather devoted, rather faithful, rather involved in church helping out. I had joined my church english service adult library to be librarian. Now I am attending the Youth service in the morning whenever I can, but sometimes really cannot wake up that early to go for youth. Now i was helping out in the Youth CG as a youth assistant and I am even selected to attend a Youth Leadership Training which started last week. this training will equip me to be a good youth leader. i felt that this is a good chance to build up my confidence and bibical knowledge. I will try my best to learn as much and challenge myself to be more daring, rather being shy. I think it's really a good start for me not only that, I knew some of my school christian thru SYFC. I'm glad that I knew more friends. I wish i can share the gospel to all people I know. I prayed for chances. 

Now, you see me as a very devoted christian, do you know that in the past, i thought that as long as I believe in God, it's good enough, I don't see any need to attend any church services. I was totally wrong about it. Attending church services, not only broaden your knowledge about God's words but at the same time, brighten your unanswered thoughts. I realised that, all the sermons that are being preached by the pastors sometimes really spot out troubles. Just like there's once, I was rather worried about our projects, and so i brought a very heavy heart to church because I was rather heavy with the burden i was carrying with me. I think God knows how I had felt and straight during the service, the pastor preached about faith, about leaving all my burden to the Lord, we don't have to carry with us. God will always be the help, be there for us. I believe in that. Not only the Bible and the services are important, but time with God is even more important, do quiet time, pray, this will bring us closer to God, and we will have closer relationship with God. That's the way we communicate with God. it's rather amazing. i find that. And you know what changed my thinking, it's through a church camp that i went some yrs ago. I thank God that I had gone for this camp. The day before the camp, I was still hesitating whether i should or shouldn't go for the camp, I had a feeling not to go, but I have no excuses to reject the offered by edmund. And so i went, I'm glad that i had gone for this camp.It's a life-changing camp for me. I learnt alot through this camp.It changed my thinking, my life, especially my christian life.Okay, now i will start to talk about the past me.

The past me, will be someone you will not wanna know or get closer. The past me was negative all the time, depressed, unhappy, angry, jealous, hateful. I remembered that I used to cry very often when I was in Sec sch. I remembered that i was a sensitive, I was aggressive, i was violence, I was vulgar, I was immature, I was depressed. 

1st: Sensitive - I was indeed a sensitive freak, i will always think that people are laughing and mirking at me because of my outlook, i was rather inferior and low self-esteem. I was thinking why I looked like that. Not only that i became very suspicious, i suspect that my friends are gossiping about me. I felt that although they appeared real nice to me, but I don't feel that it's really true, I can feel a gap between me and them. I believe that everyone has their own an acquaintances. However, for me, i felt that I was all alone, alone in my dark world that I had created for myself to be in. I felt being not being loved, not being cared, not being with someone. I really felt helpless. And that's when I feel that life is boring, life has no happiness, life has no light, life is nothing. There's a period of time i dislike going to school. 

2nd: Aggressive + hot-temper + violence - I used to be very aggressive, I behaved like a lion, why do i do that, the reason was simple, I didn't want anyone to bully me. I was immature that's why i was aggressive. I'm famous for being a Dajie in grps. I pretty well not sure why, but unknownly, I became other people's DAJIE! I was rather hot-temper because i get angry very easily when I was very angry, do not under estimated me, I will do things that will surprise you. I can break your file, throw your books into the bin, throw your pencil case, or even worst I turned to violence, I will hit you with whatever is in my sight with extremely full force. People who got it from me will know what I am saying. I think I was very horrible in the past. Make me like a bullied. Whenever, my weaker friends cried, people will always say i bullied them because I am stronger. I was really hurt. I was a lady too Okay.. I appeared to be fierce so as no-one will dare to bully me. I treated all my friends with my best effort, but what's in return hurtful remarks, hurtful actions? Last time i tend to think that friends are everything in my life. But now no longer everything. Now, I'm good to everyone. I feel that God is my everything. Without Him, I will have nothing, seriously. And not forgetting my family. Friends will come and pass your life, it greatly depend if you and your friends are really fated. 

3rd: Vulgar - People who knows me in the past will know that I was rather a vulgar person, every sentence will have a vulgar words. In the past, i think it's rather cool to have vulgar in the mouth. I even speak Vulgar in front of teachers. They nearly faint, because at that time I was a Mointress. I wasn't showing a good example to other students. But Now i totally changed. I dislike vulgaries very much.. I dislike people who are vulgar like myself in the past. I will changed more that even small vulgar words are not allow.

Although I had changed, as in my temper is much more better than before, just that I am still very impatient with people. I am those who will fought for reasons. I dislikes unreasonable treatment or accuation. It's insults me.  And now i live a happy life, i'm content with what I have. Even friends, i treasure them if they do. I'm no more depressed, no more sensitive, no more aggressive, i smile more this days and I will continue to SHINE in God's glory.No one is perfect but i will change for the best. 

I thank God for letting me turned back. It's a good reflection of my past. So that I will remember how God had help me and support me so much. Without God, there will be no SHINE GRACE anymore. THANK YOU, LORD!

Relax your mind and humble your heart to focus on Christ. Allow God to be
the only person on your mind while you read this prayer. If we can take
the time to read long jokes, stories, etc., we should give the same
respect to this prayer. Friends, who pray together, stay together.
 
Dear Lord, I thank you for this day. I thank You for my being able to see
and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and
an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on
blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or
thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day
with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each
and every day to clear my mind so tha t I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. Let me
continue to see sin through God's eyes and acknowledge it as evil. And
when I sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing, and
receive the forgiveness of God.

And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus' example -- to
slip away and find a quiet place to pray. It's the best response when I'm
pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my
heart. Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong
that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of
encouragement for others. I pray for those who are lost and can't find
their way. I pray for those who are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray
for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those who will delete
this without sharing it w ith others. I pray for those who don't believe.
But I thank you that I believe.

I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all
my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their
households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are
out of debt and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem,
circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands
for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of
every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly..

This is my prayer.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Now that I have take up the Challenge of joining the Youth Leadership Training, Lord, I Pray that you will grant me Wisdom and Confidence to continue.Lord, you know that i'm a rather shy and introvert person, I pray that through this training, i will be able to change into someone you can use to share your teaching! And I will be able to serve in the CG in mu church and encourage those younger youth to be more spirit-filled! Thanks Lord for hearing my prayer.

IN Jesus Precious Name I prayed,
Amen.
 

Don't know starting from when, i realised that the world we are living now are full of evil thoughts, full of destruction,full of blood-shed,full of sinners. There are many sinners appearing in our mist. They think what they do that will threaten other people's life is great work? They think they are heros? Think again, i really think they are just a bunch of childish and harmful people. They are the destruction themselves. Who they think they are that they have the right to even takes other's people's life? The answer is that they have no right to take anyone's life, only God can, because He created Heaven and Earth. He gave us life, He exchanged His life for ours, ours worthless life! Who are they to take away people's life? 

They are sinners like you and I, they are also created by God. They are bring shame to God, as God make us in His image and all these WORTHLESS human being are misusing God's blessing upon us! There are really a pile of shit that are, heartless, cold-blooded, i feel an anger within me, i really feel that they don't even deserve to live at all.They are the black sheep in our mist.. We are sinners but they are WORST than SINNERS! They don't deserve to be saved. We gave them chance to change, but did they ever make any changes? No they didn't even make any changes and what's more, they became worst. They are KILLING more and more people, not only  innocence life, but as well as people who are there to help out their IDIOITIC country! How are they being treated? Life-threatening? Why this people are like the demon of our world.. 

They are HORRENDOUS! They have make our everyday life hell! I felt that this world is in despair. However, Lord, You are the only hope of those 22 Korean christian.You are their light. But this also let me realise that they no longer worry, as i know that they had alrdy gone back to Heaven, to be with our Heavenly Father., They no longer suffer, they no longer worry. This show's life and death is just a slight distance away.

Now all we could do is to PRAY for the situation to turn.. Turn for the good! I prayed for those korean christian who had been kidnapped! We shall all PRAY for them. Remember God said before: " When two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the mist of them."(Matthew 18:20) 

I have come across a email from someone and i think it's a good reminder to all of us.

 

Another Godly advice
 
  The four blessed looks:
Look back and thank God. Look forward and trust God. Look around and
serve God. Look within and find God!"
 
"I asked God, 'How do I get the best out of life?'
 
God said, 'Face your past without regrets. Handle your present with
confidence. And prepare for the future without fear!'"
 
"Without God, our week is: Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday,
Fightday, Shatterday and Sinday. So, allow Him to be with you every
day!"
 
"Life is short, so Forgive quickly. Believe slowly. Love truly. Laugh
uncontrollably. Never regret anything that makes you happy. And have
a  wonderful journey!" !"

We Should never forget God when we already have everything.
Without God our life has no life, no happiness, nothing execpt sin!

HEY HEY HEY!
Thanks to all my friends who had wished me happy birthday or belated birthday! Thanks for remembering my birthday!
I had a great dinner tonight. I love the food, i love the cakes, i love my friends, i love the plan! Great time together! I hope that the night can be longer so that we can spend more time together..Although no alcohol drinks but it's alright b'cos we had ice cream instead! ThANKS TO Eve, Daphne, Kelly and miao hua, who actually gives me face and stay until rather late! THANKS! I day enough thank you to express my happiness and gratefulness!

THANKS FRIENDS!

  I realised that we, human beings like to bear all the heavy burden on our shoulder and we always think that we can handle it all by ourselves when the fact is that we can't. It's too heavy for us to bear it on our shoulder and after a long period of time, we get very tired of all the burden that we had carried with us for so long. But we can only blame ourselves for that, who ask us to compel ourselves when we can't. Worry will never end. Why spend our life on worrying about this and that when we can't control what's to come? Worries for Students: Studies, BGR, Exams,Projects, Peers, etc. Worries for Adults: Work, Financial, Children, Taxes, House Loan, Fees, Bills, etc. Worries for Elderly: Healthy, Children,Financial, Their last day, etc. In life, we bound to face difficulties. Life will not  go so smoothly, we cannot live a life that we wanted, because this is life. Our life is just like a boat out in the river, there will be times we met with waves, there will be times it will be stable.Don't you all agreed?

  People who have faith will be able to see hopes through darkness and they will not see it as a problem or darkness that had befallen on them but hope! When we have faith, we will be able to overcome any difficulties/darkness that had befallen on us rather than giving up. We should not give up, as God has never give up on us, even we are sinner, but He always give us chances to repent after chances and He will always forgive what we had done wrong as long as we confess and repent. Our faith does not appear outside of us but it's within us. When a person who has faith in God will behave differently compare to those who does not have faith and who has not know God. It's actually very obvious.

 A few Questions to the Christians:

1) Did we bring our difficulties/problems/obstacles upon to God's presence?
OR
2) Did we tried to handle our own difficulties/problems/obstacles?
3) Did we have faith in God?
Please spend some time ponder over this few questions.

  No matter how heavy our burden is or how serious is the problem, we just need to leave it up to God and He will do what is right for us. We need not to worry so much. We must learn to leave it all up to God and let Him do the job for us and He will bear our heavy burden. He had shedded His blood for our sin, He had suffered and die on the cross for our sake. He had done so much for us.  For Christian, Our God is with us no matter where we are and He act like a father, like a friend to us. The cross that some christian are carrying with them, it's a symbol for us to remind we, Christian what God had done so much for us. He's so great. 


  When there's faith, there's miracles. It may happen immediately or after sometime. No matter how long it takes, God will fulfill what we have prayed to Him and He had heard us. It's just a matter of time. God has God's time. God has His planning. God has His vision for us. 

   Some times, things may appear impossible and hopeless but never give up, because i said before, God never given us up so why should we give up ourselves so easily? We should bring ourselves into God's presence and pray our worry. God will listen and He will fulfilled when we have faith in Him! Give thanks to God when God's will is fulfill and our prayers had been answered. We should use God's view to understand God. 
 
 We cannot compare our wisdom/ourselves with God because our wisdom, our life are all granted by God. We should be content that we will still be able to breathe the air each day. God's exchange His life for ours' life. 

Stay Faithful and everything will be different. 

Sharing time:

Yesterday, I had a presentation. I was rather nervous on the day before this presentation, because I was not very prepared of what to present on that day. And so i made a rather long prayer in my room, I told God that I am very nervous, I am so scare that I can't do well in the presentation. I shared with God my feelings. I can sense that He's listening to me attentively.It's really true. I ask God to grant me confidence, grant me wisdom and grant me a mouth that can speak off what i need to present. I also prayed for my team-mates( Jasmine & Eve) Since i can't help much in the project, all i can do is to pray. I wanted to help out in the project, but i'm not capable enough to do so.I felt useless actually. I went to sleep not long after i received the ppt from Jas as I had a horrible headache that night and the pain is killing me silently. I stay faithful because I believe that God will help me carry this burden.

And the day had come, that morning, there was no sign of anxiety but there is calm and an unexplainable peace within me. I know that it's all God's. God had answered to my prayer and I'm delighted. Thanks God for hearing my prayer and answered to my prayer. =) You're great, God!

Faithful had made things change and it may surprised you!

Bible verses to remind us of our FAITH:

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.- Proverbs 3:5,6

For with God nothing shall be impossible. - Luke 1:37

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. - Hebrews 11:1

Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. - Ephesians 6:16

  Fortune-Tellers can tell tall stories to make us happy or make us worry. However, how sure can we be that what they said is 100% true? Fortune-Tellers are human beings. Human beings have no power, only God has power. Fortune-Tellers can never foreseen the future. Some times, what they said appeared to be rather true but actually not necessary, because they judge us on our outlook. If they really can foreseen the future, they will be enjoying their life right now, will they ever fancy those pity money that those people paid for his fortune-telling? Why will they be so pitiful when they know what's to come in the future. If Fortune-Tellers can't foreseen their future so what make us believe that what they foreseen our future is true.? How true can they be speaking? The answer is 0%! So what's the point on believing in things that are untrue and it's a waste of money. I rather spend it on something else that is useful.

Bible verses to remind us of our God's words:

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth.
- John 1:1,14

As newborn babies, desire the sincere milk of the Word, that ye may grow thereby. - 1Peter 2:2

 

   I haven been really blogging lately, because I've been thinking a lot of stuff. I've no mood to blog neither do i've any mood to do anything. I had a mild depression last week. I felt real tired of everything that is happening around me and all the things that i need to handle, my school work, exam, projects, relationship, and i wanted to slim down but it seems like I don't have the mood to do that too. Everything seems too much for me to take it. I was mentally tired. I felt like ending all up. I really keep it all up to myself. I wish nobody know about it. But now, I find that i'm feeling better so i feel like saying it all out so as to make myself feel much more better. Sometimes, i feel like sharing my stuff with my friends but they always seem to have no time to had a good chat wif me. I just don't want to keep myself alone, when i'm all alone, i tend to think alot. When i think alot, I'll get depressed. I'm not blaming my friends,  i know everyone has their very down thing to do.

   During this period of time, I realized how true God is to me. I talked to God since noone is there to listen to me, & i know that God is the only one that is willing to hear what she wanna share with Him. He's always with us! No matter where we are, He's there to keep watch and be with us! He's great! No God is greater than HE is! I can feel that He is really listening to me, listening to my prayer. I can feel the warm He had given me. I felt much console with His Presence. He's just like a heavenly father that had come and see His daughter who felt helpless, hopeless, loneliness. He had come to console, to encourage, to shower His love over me. I'm glad that i had this experience.. Thanks God.. You are so real that i cannot deny that you are true! I never felt this before. I wish to experience it everytime. I need God to make me feel whole. I wanna be closer to God. I wanna feel Your Presence.
I believe that He will answer to my prayer, it's just a matter of time. 

   I have found out that with God around there is nothing is impossible, especially when you have a mission to do God's word, God will bless you and give you all the Providence ( Where God guide, He will direct. Where God leads, He will provide.) There are many things that happened because of our prayer. Every prayer is heard by God, no matter is a long short one..Every prayer counts! I saw miracles happened when all of us pray together as a church and as well as individual. I will share this the next time. 

  Our life may seems to be nothing. Our everything seems to be useless. But in God's eyes, We've been useful and everything is possible. He can use us a tool to do His work. He's the potter.

  When we relied in ourselves, things seems useless but when we feel that we are useless, it's time God to choose us and make us useful. When you feel that you are good in everything, you cant see how great God can be, because you only see yourself.

Take time to think. I had think it all thru this weeks! Everything i said is what i had experienced, seen it and feel it.


  

    

Forgive, sound good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regret and I don't mind saying

It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they've write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm still mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what  it is you think I should

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
'Cause I'm still mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what  it is you think I should

Forgive, sound good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

This is a nice song and it speaks my heart. This is my recommended song for today!

    We will never know what is to come in the future. There are too many things that will come without we even notice. Like what? Like death, like sickness, like natural disaster. All this are beyond our control, we can't control how long we can live, we can't control ourselves from getting fatal sickness and last of all, we are unable to control natural disaster. There are many things that neither you nor me can control. We can't control what kind of life we wanna live, but we must live our life to the fullest. We must make use of time when we are still alive and when we are still breathing to do things that we think is meaningful and important, don't waste anytime that you have it with you now. Because once we missed the time we used to own them, we will never be able to get them back and use them. Time don't wait for anyone. It'll pass by no matter how your emotion is. Time pass by real fast. So we must cherish what God had given us right now., before time passes so fast that you have miss it, don't live a life that you will regret.

    Why people are so immature? They always spend time to have conflict with people,  waste time worry about this & that. We may seems young. & you may say:" We are still so young why can't we think of future? There is so much time left for us to be alive in this world. " Yes, we may be young. Yes, we can think what we want in the future. But have you ever think of when will be your last day on earth? You can plan your own whole life time, but do you really have the time to fulfill what you have actually plan? Life is so short. Why spend time thinking of things that are yet to come? Don't you think you should spend time thinking how can you live a life that is meaningful and you can live it to the fullest without any regret?

    You may think that you still have alot of time since you're young and  you're still healthy but what if you realised that you have diagnose some illness? I can tell you that everything will become very different, Especially when you are diagnose with an illness that is incurable, you will have to live your life with this illness.

    I just wanna do some own experience sharing with you all. I have an incurable illness, although i am young right now, i have to take note of the things i'm in-taking everyday. I must be very careful. Although the illness is very mild right now, but no one knows when things will get worsen & worst come to worst, i may die.

    When i first found out that i had diabetes, my heart sank, i couldn't accept the fact that i had it. I wanted to cry but i chose to hold back my tears. I was thinking, i am still so young how can i ever get such an illness. I know the seriousness of this illness. I'll die if i don't control of my in-take of sugar and sweet stuff.  And you know  the worst thing is that I had to give up all the sweet stuff like cakes, chocolates etc, I LOVE THEM ALL! You know from that moment, my world had changed, i felt depressed, i felt as if there's no hope for me. But the doctor said: " Don't worry, you had it at a very early stage, it's still not the end of the world. We just need some more test to see if you need medication." The doctor actually console me. After knowing the bad news, that few days, my world seems dark, and after some times, there's something bad happened in my church. I felt stress out and felt depressed, seems like my world is falling apart, there's seems no light, i felt i was all alone, i felt that everything is falling apart, everything is going real wrong, What is really happening?

     I had a double blow, i couldn't accept at the start. However, after giving some serious thought over all the things that had happened to me. I realised that I should Thank God for letting me know that i had diabetes at a very early stage so that i still have time to prevent from getting worst. Thanks God! I believed that He had planned for me to take the blood test. And i had a more detail blood test and the good news is that my sugar in my body is still not very seious that i don't need to be under medication. Although, I don't have to eat medicine for this but right now, my kidney is leaking Protein out and it's not good, so now i need to take medicine for that. And for the other thing, I feel that God is giving me a chance to adapt to new environment no matter i like it anot. It's actually good to train myself up. I felt much better when God actually reveal all this to me. I didn't question God why I got this illness but i accept if and leave it to God. I believe God will be able to walk through this hard times with me. I know there will be alot of hardship in future, but i shouldn't fear, because I have God with me. He will be my light, my hope, my healer, my friend, my consoler.

     I feel that life is precious. Life is fragile, i can be alive at this moment but right after this, i am gone.  I don't want to live my life as if everyday is the same, because i find it meaningless.  I don't want to waste time to think what i wan in future, yes i do wan someone who can let me relied when i am tired. Seems like i haven't found him. Since now, no one to be there when i needed him, i will relied myself. I know i have God with me is good enough. Thanks God for giving a chance to live. Thanks for dying on the cross for all of us, although we are so unworthy but you did it willingly. I saw your unconditional love for us. I LOVE YOU,LORD!

    There are many things that happen in this world that we are living, and yet none of us know why. I think the reason is that none of us  are sensible enough to see the things that happening in out mist. The question scarcely registered in each and everyone's thinking. We are always questioning why this and that happened, but have we ever ponder deeper enough to see what is the profound true meaning and what is the real purpose for things to happen in this way?

    I feel that each and every one of us should give some serious thoughts about what i had said and truely understand the reasons for evrerything that had happened. However, even if we don't see it why now, there will be a right time to let you know the true reason  of the incident happened which seems like hell to you. But i there are many things that can be solve by action, i think everyone knows what to do and not just by using the mouth of ours to say what we wanna do and keep repeat the question why. Action speaks louder than words. Words that are empty is meaningless, it's like empty promises.

    Many things happening in our surrounding include the good times and time when the problems started to arouse in each and every one's life, no matter we liked it or not, we need to face it and overcome it.There bound to have different moments that happened in this realistic world which is beyond our control.

    Anything can happen anythime, anywhere and to anyone. And it can come with or without any sign.

Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

    Kinda nice songs that i have came across it's rather speaks what is deep in my heart. I just wanna share with you all.